Friday, August 15, 2014
Scattered Thoughts on Moving
I have known and planned for our moving day for a couple of years now. I think that part of me never really thought it was going to happen. The kids are registered in their new school. We have switched our membership. We have sort of packed. Weird packing. Some is in storage. Some is moved. Some will stay till the house is sold. Some we are taking with us. I went out for a walk around town this morning and had all these random thoughts. Crazily enough a lot of them contradicted each other. I will miss seeing the mountains every day. I can't wait to not have neighbors so close, to be out in the middle of the pea field we are building in. But I think it will take me awhile to readjust back to not being able to just run into town. I haven't lived out on the farm for almost 20 years. I will not miss having kids knock on my door and asking if they can play in my house. I will miss being able to send Blake to the park and ride bikes with his friends. I am very excited to have my kids ride the bus. I am going to miss being able to walk up and get them from school. Dave and I enjoy going for a walk in the evening when he is home. We just tell the kids we are going on a date and they need to be in bed when we get back. Most times they are. This we will still be able to do, but I will miss the street lights. I am very afraid of the dark, or rather what is in the dark that I can't see. I will miss the friends we have made here. We have not been very social the last year, but we have great friends. I am excited to finally do this. We feel like we have been living in limbo for a while now. At least we can now get on with it. I am so nervous for this next step. It is hard for me to meet new people. New school, new ward, new life, kinda. I am looking forward to having my husband around every night. I am sad that I will no longer be on the way to town for my parents. No more calls to say 'Hey we are doing 'The Loop' as they call it. Or Nicole stopping in to use the bathroom on the way. We are still close enough for people to day trip, just no able to pop in. There are so many different thoughts and emotions about this day. This is going to be a fun, challenging, exciting, harder, easier, sad, great, relieving, stressful new step in our lives. I know this is where we are meant to go. I feel like I am totally walking on faith right now. I have no idea what I would do with out the gospel to guide me in these huge life changing decisions.